living to laugh?

no one knows exactly what they were put on this earth for. unfortunately life doesn't come with a guide book. we're just born, with the essential organs, and body parts for living in this world. our thoughts alter throughout our lifetime and we don't have the same views as everyone else. we like different colors, different food, have different taste in music, fashion, movies; everything. very rarely do you find someone who likes exactly everything you like and has the same exact views on everything that you do. the only time you do run into this person is when you gaze into the mirror honestly. but you were to ever find someone who did actually happen to enjoy doing everything you did, listen to the same music as you and eat the same food as you, i guarantee you would get bored with this person. why be with someone that likes the same thing's you do? it's like being with yourself. you would probably have more fun having a conversation with yourself rather than having the same dead end conversation with someone who acts and thinks exactly like you.

i'm not sure i will ever find someone who's EXACTLY like me. sure me and some of my friend enjoy the same music. other friends enjoy to do the same things that i do. and one or two friends have the same views on life that i do. but the friends that enjoy my music don't have the same views on life that i do and the friends that enjoy to do some of things i like to do don't like my taste in music at all. but they're my friends because we can have arguments over who the best band is or is this war really worth it. you can't truly have a friendship/relationship with someone without having some type of disagreements. if that was the case how bored would you be with these friends? better yet, how bored would you be with life?

despite what people may think, life revolves around confrontations. you confront your fears, confront your hopes, confront what you don't understand, confront those who don't understand you; it's just something that happens, almosts like breathing. you can live your whole life trying to avoid confrontations but it wouldn't work if your tried your hardest. even if you think you've lived your life without yelling at one person, i'm pretty sure you've yelled at something that is alive and did nothing to you. or if not, you've definitley cursed someone out behind their back. it's natural, as farfetched as it may sound.

majority of confrontations comes from people feeling threatened by something or someone they don't understand. they feel like they're being left in the dark about something so they lash out and try to see the light, when all they really had to do in the first place was ask. the majority of society today doesn't understand the homosexual community so they lash out. calling them all types of hurtful names such as fag, homo, freaks, etc. only because they don't know what it's like to be a homosexual. they don't have to live with the confusion. they don't have to live with the ridicule. they don't have to walk around everyday in a gender that they don't believe they should be; with body parts they believe they shouldn't have. but they live life everyday, head held high, trying to make it day by day yet those who don't understand them and feel threatened, they pull them down. trying to destroy them, all because they can't see the light; because they are half-sighted and their minds aren't open to learn.

what we don't know won't kill us. people are so afraid to just step out of their skin and go with the flow. they stay hidden behind their beliefs and their "religion". they can't do this because it's "against their religion." they can't do that because it's "against their religion". i'm not much of a religious person, so if you ask me religion is just a barrier that was put into people's heads so they don't sin, and curse, and kill animals for meat. don't get me wrong, it makes perfect sense. just like a video game needs rules, i'm guessing life does too. it has to have it's boundaries or else everyone will just do what they want and feel like they won't get punished for it. so for those who are religiously "religious", they go by what the bible says. whatever it says goes, no one can tell them different and if you try to it won't work at all. they follow their God and pray to him hoping he has the answers and guidance that they can't get from anyone else; or atleast they seem to think this way.

i've never been the one to dance to the same rhythm as everyone else. i've never been the one who always knew the right things to say and exactly when to say it. i'll probably say the most fucked up thing and the most inappropriate time and think nothing of it. for me there is no "religion". though my life does have consequences and they come at the most fucked up times, somehow i feel i provoke myself to deal with these consequences over and over again. something about them excites me. so i'm the one who takes life by the balls i'm guessing. i make bad decisions over and over again, learn something, and most likely make the same bad decision just for the hell of it. hardheaded? maybe. but it's my life and as scary as it may sound, i'm at the wheel and i'm steering as well as i can. without the guidance and the answers, i'll never stop for directions, i'll drive until i run out of gas. starting in one direction and ending in another. running over a couple of people and getting a couple of flat tires, maybe a ticket or two.

you can't stop me.

until you're able to stop life.

until you're able to stop everyone and everything i stand for.

once i'm done pushing, i'll push some more.

we were born to live.

our mothers pushed for us to enter this world, it's your job to push to stay in it.

never ask for directions.

and never be short-sighted.

judge only what you fully understand.

and understand what you're mind allows you to, which is pretty much infinite-your mind doesn't run out of space.

live.
dont laugh.
there's nothing funny.
live.
don't learn.
everything is pretty much self-taught.
live.